Waving lyrics

Waving

Watch the sun set
As if it were life
The desiccation of self
And the end of the light
The ocean waves crash
and overturn awareness
It swollows me into
The starving night
Abandonment
It rots the being inside
The wind is breathing
safe domain away
The sea-bound fire
races along the edge
Aware or not
This smoke is alive

From behind this burning horizon
emerges a glimpse into the past
to reveal a diminishing worth
and the truest form of doubt
It is a hinderence and I know this
Thus leaving me a hypocrite
And for the first time
I am afraid
Memories that cannot be relived
carve their way through my will
to prolong this stretch of realization
I wave to the lone silhouette
Standing idle against the twilight
Reanimated from a time that projected
an illusion of possibility
I might have mattered

Your scent still lingers through my mind
And is still conjured to the forefront
Every detail and every moment
I remember
The sweet, heavenly haze of a dream
A dream close enough to taste
So briefly touched upon
Just enough to engulf me
To wish for infinity
To ask innocently
To project my honesty
All coming back to damn me
A chance
Burning to the touch
The fire ocean crossed
The golden treasure - is failure

It is all too strong
The consumption of the crushing defeat
It is all too far gone
I can only digress into submission
Cornered by the smoldering haze
The suffocating ashes
emanating off the sky line
home to the same mocking silhouette
that is fading before me
My fucking shadow reminding me
That some day - that one day - it isn't coming
It extends it's hand to clutch my own
grasping with its burning past
and the emptiness of the dead future
My fucking shadow reminding me
It is not he to behold as the silhouette
But I -
I am the Shadow

Look at me
Look into my eyes
What you are telling me
is not sincere
We are not playing your game again
It was only a matter of time
I gave you my time
And I want it back

I want my wasted tears back
I want my wasted dreams back
I want my fading time back
I want my fucking life back
I know my new place
I am through giving
No longer
No more

So cold - enclosed
Stay behind - locked away
Frost encompasses - eyes sealed partially
blocked inside - Isolated
Time is defeated
This is how it ends
Umbilical purge
Make amends
Succumbing to the ice
The blood finally halts
Slowly fading
Slowly waving

This last embrace means everything